All these weeks of study, gathering, and memorizing led to a beautiful release and reception. What has come about from intense strain on my body, time, and mind in participation with this show has not out-weighed what I have recieved. I developing a character on stage, I've discovered that that character shaped my own beyond measure.
I look about me with new eyes. I'm seeking pure intentions or what we would call Holiness, as much as humanly possible. A denial of the world's distorted standards, looking for beauty, and chasing the truth and freedom that comes along with it. I remember more of the influence off stage than upon it. I remember attaining more peace;I've learned the art of peaceful reconciliation and peaceful endings. The eyes of my heart widened to the blind man on the street, the deaf in a cafe, and the handsome young man without arms or legs who graced me with his beautiful smile and brought tears to my eyes. And with that, a greater acceptance and bravery within myself and my minor deformities. I am humbled at a far greater level to fall to my knees.
My closest girlfriend commented on her sense of guilt in connection with her lack of devotion. I shared only what I was glad to have arrived at. That love was the flow from which devotion comes; no aughts or shoulds need apply. Simply acceptance. The devotion I take with me is to one whom I could find my source of channelling what I alone could not sustain. Laying aside pride to recieve can be the greatest challenge for it is the inconcievable gift. Love. I have loved the process of becoming Margaret and I have grown to love the beautiful souls of the cast-both young and matured.
With one more weekend left of "being" Margaret; I'm already determined to take what I've been inspired by and carry it out into everything I do. All inspired, all in faith, all in Love.