These times are the times worth noting, not because of some great accomplishment or romantic setting but for the story and the struggle that lies within. I remember that as my stomach grumbles and I long for some meaty substance for dinner. Until I recieve a check, I am a temporary vegetarian. I have made my escape to a cafe where, for an hour or two, I can feel a sense of luxury.
However, I will continue to repeat that I am far more fortunate that a majority of the world. Of the last few movies I had seen, there were two which touched upon situations that had led characters to a state of poverty (one in which I was a background actress.) Though I highly doubt I will reach either lows, the point that was pressed upon me was that it was possible. I would rather not have ever viewed a blockbuster film about the Holocaust and have it miraculously eradicated from history by simply wishing it away if it meant all those lives would be saved. But things like this have happened and happen and they are stories to be told through art, film, on print, and on stage.
I haven't the solution to a failing economy nor do I know the answer to my rising medical bills, future health, or unemployment status. Learning to take one day as it comes has been a great blessing. There is rivival with each meal, each encouragement, and each opportunity to reconnect with my passions. I thoroughly enjoy a borrowed book from the library, a downward facing dog position, prayer, and even practicing my karaoke songs on You Tube (don't tell anyone.) This is part of what makes me who I am and I remember that each character has their own.
The point is that as unfortunate as my situation is, the goal is to live my story the best way I can. Through it, I learn to comprehend hunger, illness, brokenheartedness, failure, and eventually victory. We as actors, have the opportunity to share the human experience and it should never be something exploited or even become arrogant over. I had five dollars in my pocket today, I spent three dollars and twenty-five cents to enjoy an evening telling you my story.