After being called back to perform in a show that I had scheduling conflicts with, I ended an emotionally difficult day on a happier note. The day was one which tested my patience and faith, not to mention the physical weight of holding stress and hunger. I knew that I would receive funds today and I sensed that something good would happen despite my circumstances.
The play that I return to has a new director, one that I've grown close with over the years. In our discussion of the upcoming production, we passionately agreed on the level of skill required for those wanting to participate. A proficiency in comprehending lengthy and wordy scripts is something I believe many people overlook in our age of "comment" and "reply's" in texts and message boards. I am a romantic in the desire to preserve how affections can be conveyed through lengthy letters and in books. How much more is it that an actor maintains their inner-dictionary? Where else do we find such fueling for the soul than through the work provided by a playwright, poet, or novelist?
Revived by a large meal and good conversation, I was ready to view some fine acting in a film but instead picked up PRIDE & PREJUDICED and felt my creative juices overflow and expand by crossing old familiar words and imagining the textures of the voices for each character. I was exhilarated at how reading could bring such satisfaction since I had been recently occupied and at times, consumed, by my situation and it brought conflict against enjoying great moments.
Nostalgia sank in as I brought the book to my nose, smelled the paper and remembered it as a gift so many years ago from the one man I truly loved. How wonderful! What things can trigger responses and how grateful I am that through some trials, I have reconnected with what I hope to express in my performances.