My experiment to re-awaken has been difficult and as I decline and subtract, slowly but surely, I am developing purposeful habits.  When I want to attain something, I have the tendency to transform instantly into a sponge and gather all I can and I am careful to do so now much more gradually.  I've even taken a step back and bask in the joy of growing and releasing. 

It is quite humbling to be at the beginning phases of understanding new things and developing skills in areas of God-given talents.  Either way, I've been going to bed with the music, words, or ideas lingering softly, hovering over me, not in forceful urgency but something more like moisturizer settling into the pores and soothing the dryness.  It is both fresh and frightening.....